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hahahahahahaha. laugh it out. whatever. dun gif a damn anymore. at least i learnt how to cope with this. in the first place i'm lucky i was mentally prepared and din go THAT far. otherwise i guess i wouldn't be able to cope after all. haha. i din know i can be so easily played off, i din know i had been so trusting. damn! hahahaha. fine. fine. fine. i dunno how come after YOU found out you din even flinch. you think i dunno how cunning you are. HAHAHA. laugh you off. i know that if i ever made a move ppl would think that i'm that bitch who betrayed you. haha. so funny. if you LOOK BACK AT FACTS, baby, YOU owe me bigtime. shaddap. you know it ok. hello? you call me your friend? all this time i give in to you. do you know i don't like it when you start brooding over those stuffs day in and out? haha. you dunno right. did you know that i dun like hearing all the things you like to say? do you? haha. NO. even if you did, did You care? haha. whatever. go on putting up ure act, go on gaining sympathy, i dun realli care anymore. i jus pretend i cant see, cant hear. HELLO?!?! ppl have limits to their patience ok, and mine is almost there. the reason as to why i'm not shouting this straight to your face is because i dun wan you to start apologising and mourning in front of me again. OH PLEASE. can you jus put ureself in other's shoes? i'm sure you won't like it when i do it to you if you were me ok. so please please be more sensitive. UGH. fine. stop mentioning you. YOU irk ME.

people, i wan you to know something that's very important okay. if you realli feel down or anything, find someone to talk to.. it'll make you feel better. trust me. if you can't find anyone i'm here ok. whether it's family problem, or relationship problem, or friends problem, jus share it with someone. they'll feel glad you're willing to trust them and you'll feel muCh more better. =)
arghs! what's up with all you out there who think you're out of love or something? hello! for most of you, remember you're still teen and you have hardly even went through a quarter of your life.  plleeaase dun give it up jus because ure gf or bf abandon you or anything. even if they ignore you for a week, think on the bryte side, they may be too busy. after all, even lovers need a holiday away from each other.
i'm not like some expert or anything ok. like most of you out there, i'm an average teenage girl in 21st century singapore. like most of you, yes, i've been in love, i've had a bf before, have broken up, have coped, have lived. if i can do it, why can't you? stop giving reasons like i'm different or anything. no matter what, girls esp, remember.. your world does NOT revolve around boys ok. hello? i'm a girl too, who says i dun understand what you feel, we are feeling whatever love, jealousy, hatred, whatever whatever. it's not worth it spoiling this wonderful years of your life over this. you can onli be a teen once. please, if your bf ignores you for a while dun give your best friend the black face and cry all the time ok, she may not like it. PLEASE. and then after that when he starts acknowledging you again you suddenly are ok. sometimes ppl KNOW things ok.
i'm not different from you, i am a normal teen too. stop defacing the word depression. if you are onli feeling down, jus syou're feeling down. NOT DEPRESSED. go check the dict! depression is not what you think it is ok. it's a serious medical case. i know ok, i've had that condition before, and only recently. being depressed is not jus being sad because someone hates you or whatever. i know what depression is ok. it's worse. you completely lose all interest in everything and you jus wanna lie in ure bed and bleed to death and constantly beg your mother to send you for councelling. it's bad. it's real bad.
sorry all.
samantha.

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bored. noW at school's com lAb. what the heck. they changed all the coms to dell pentium 4 and i expected it to be better. guess whAt? uGh. just as slow, pLus.. lAggie.. uGh uGh uGh! lASt period of dee day and `cher nT here.. went fer reservice last week and came bAck sick. so cool. Lit `cher took us here to plAy. so cool! love hEr. siAns.. sorTa miss form `cher.. haha.. after this at 2.15 there's NDP briefing for all marching contigents.. siAn½.. haha.. then after that may hAve enrolment rehearsals.. so boRing.. just stand there and salute salute salute, cus i'm noT pL whAT. okok.. nVm..ya nOe what. i realli miss my piano. i wanna go home noe to play it. hAiz. toniGht there's lessons. shiEt.. i'm dead runnin outta things to sAy. i apologise once again for the layout.. i juSt keep wanting to do it but i always dunt get round to it. so sAd! wahahaha.. no matter.. i'd do it.. someday.. someday.. someday..

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